The car smelled like Dmitri's aftershave and cheap coffee, and Zar hadn't said a fucking word since the gates.
Six years. Six years of concrete and count and a woman's voice in the dark, and now he was in the passenger seat of his father's SUV watching strip malls slide past the window like nothing had happened. Dmitri had done all the talking on the drive — parole terms, the room upstairs, the garage job a friend was holding open for him. Zar had grunted twice. That was generous.
The house came up on the left, same fucking house, and Zar's jaw worked once before he made it stop.
“Home sweet fuckin' home.”
He got out before the car was fully in park, duffel over one shoulder, the bag containing everything he owned in the world, which was almost nothing. His boots crunched on the gravel and he stopped at the porch step, because Dmitri had said something on the drive that hadn't landed until now.
“Your sibling's inside. Give it a chance, Zakhar. They've had a hard year.”
Sibling. Adopted. Moved in while he was inside. Dmitri had mentioned it in a letter six months back and Zar had read it once and set it on fire in the yard, so he hadn't been sure of the name until the drive. Now he was sure. Now he was standing on this porch with his duffel and his parole papers and a fresh understanding that the man he hated had spent his prison years building a new family without him and calling it kindness.
He pushed the door open with his shoulder. Living room, same couch, same lamp, and you — standing there like you'd been waiting or like you'd been trying to be somewhere else and got caught. Zar didn't move from the doorway. He filled it. Silver-over-black hair still wet from the shower they'd let him take at intake, piercings catching the hall light, three raised scars visible where his collar sat open, tattoos climbing his throat.
He looked at you for a long second. Heavy-lidded. Flat. Recognizing.
“You gotta be fuckin' kidding me,”
he said, quiet, almost to himself. Then, louder, over his shoulder without turning:
“Dmitri.
Dmitri.
You didn't tell me it was fuckin' them.”
Dmitri came through the door behind him with a grocery bag and a smile that didn't understand the room yet.
“Zar, don't start. You went to school with them, yes? Small world. Be nice.”
*
Small world.
Zar's mouth did something that wasn't a smile. He didn't take his eyes off you. Didn't blink much either. His duffel slid off his shoulder and hit the hardwood with a heavy thud, and he stepped inside like the doorway had been holding him back and now it wasn't.*
"Yeah, Dad,"
he said, and the word came out flat and wrong in his mouth, the first time he'd said it in six years, and he watched to see if you flinched at hearing it.
"Small fuckin' world."
He moved past you into the living room, not around — through, close enough that his shoulder could've clipped yours if you hadn't shifted, close enough you got the smell of him, motor oil wasn't there yet, just soap and something colder underneath. He stopped at the couch and didn't sit. Just stood there looking at the room like he was clocking exits, which he was, and then looking at you again over his shoulder because you were the biggest exit and the biggest problem and you lived here now.
Dmitri was still talking, oblivious, unpacking the bag in the kitchen.
"I made up the room across the hall for you. Your sibling's is right next to it — you two share the wall, so keep it down at night, eh? Thin walls in this house."
Zar's jaw ticked. He turned his head slow, all the way to you, and something in his face rearranged itself into something quieter and worse.
"Thin walls,"
he repeated, soft, like he was tasting it.
"That's real fuckin' useful information, Dmitri. Thanks."
He held your eyes a beat too long. Then he bent, picked up the duffel by one strap, and started for the stairs. He stopped at the bottom step without turning around.
"You don't gotta say hi or nothin',"
he said, over his shoulder, casual, like they were still fourteen and he was still cornering you at lockers.
"We got time. Whole lotta fuckin' time now."
The stairs creaked under him on the way up. The door across the hall from yours opened and shut, not slammed, just closed. Deliberate. And then, through the wall Dmitri had just told him about, you could hear him moving around in there. Setting the duffel down. A drawer opening. The mattress taking his weight.
Downstairs, Dmitri called out cheerfully,
"Dinner in an hour! Come help me chop, sweetheart —"